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“The only easy day was yesterday” and other ways that grief is combat

The Navy SEALS have a motto: “The only easy day was yesterday”. Every day is hard, just in different ways. Grief is a lot like that. You have to fight, every day. Sometimes I feel like losing Faith and Elijah has ruined me, and someday my heart will wear out and just stop. How canContinue reading ““The only easy day was yesterday” and other ways that grief is combat”

Today is Elijah’s due date, or: Geniuses are smart, and also dumb

October is both my favorite month, and the most agonizing one. Faith died October 22nd, 2018, and Elijah was due October 26th, 2019. Today would have been his first birthday if he’d lived. In my head he would’ve been a carbon copy of his beautiful father. [Something I devoutly hope for all my children, pastContinue reading “Today is Elijah’s due date, or: Geniuses are smart, and also dumb”

Two Years Ago Today

Ah, Jesus. What can I say that I haven’t already said? How can I express all this? Two years ago today, October 22nd, 2018, we lost our sweet little girl, Faith Elisa Gager. She was 17 weeks, 5 days old and weighed 7 ounces. She had my hands and feet. [I’ve always liked my handsContinue reading “Two Years Ago Today”

Today I’m Okay

I’m not sure if I should set up this blog this way, but what I’m trying to do is write as frequently as is helpful, but not so often that I burn out and start to spiral [ask me how I know about spiraling]. So, maybe the best thing is to write when I canContinue reading “Today I’m Okay”

A factoid about this blog:

I’m a huge nerd, so when I saw that Netflix had a new movie about Robert the Bruce, obviously I watched it. Depressingly, 1995 Mel Gibson was nowhere to be seen. [Modern Mel Gibson is a disappointment to us all, but I like Braveheart and 1995 Mel Gibson, fight me.] This was the song theyContinue reading “A factoid about this blog:”

Joys Are Coming Fast: An Intro

Hello! A few things up front: This blog isn’t meant to be anything deeply insightful or fancy; this blog is about grief and my journey through it. If you’re reading this because you’re a kind and lovely irl friend, thanks. If you’re reading this because at 2:30 in the morning you googled “how to surviveContinue reading “Joys Are Coming Fast: An Intro”